Endless Thoughts of a Mama!

March 24, 2009
Sick & Tired!!!
I'm so sick & tired of people thinking they can still tell me what I'm gonna do & when I'm gonna do it. That shit pisses me off. I'm beyond anger right now & all it does is put me in a very sad mood. Why cant people just stay out of my life & stop trying to boss me around. The last time I checked I was 22 & my own boss. You'll get it when you get it & your not getting ALL of it when we get our taxes back so you will just have to get the fuck over it. I'm gonna have to get two jobs just to feel like I'm doing something because working one job for not much money & not many hours isnt working. I feel like I'm not getting anywhere. I'm tired of this shit. It's getting old & I'm done. I've reached my breaking point & cant stand one more little second of it. Sometimes I just wish I could crawl in a deep dark hole & never come out or die would be okay! Ive just had enough of it all!

I'm tired of this house to! I'm tired of people just walking into the house without knocking & then NOT wiping there feet off. Last time I checked this was my fathers house & we live here & we pay the bills & rent. We dont celan the floors & shit for nothing ir because it's fun. We do it because you people are filthy animals who think your gonna make my house look like a fucking barn.....NOT GONNA HAPPEN!!!!! I just wish they all could go somewhere else. If not I feel like I'm gonna blow my brains out. I'm dead serious I've had enough of everything. I wish I everyone would just get off my back!!!!

I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!

Jennifer

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March 19, 2009
It's been awhile!!!!
Well it's been a good month or so since I've written here so I figured I update everyone on EVERYTHING! Not even sure where to start:

Well for those of you that knew the situation with the other guy & I while charles I were split. Well he was totally immature & childish so I got rid of him. I realized that I needed time to think about what I wanted out of life as well as of out of a man. What Shawn had wasnt even close. When I thought I was taking 2 steps forward I was actually taking like 10 steps back. But now I'm ahead & happier then ever. I figured out that what I wanted was right in front of me. i already had what I wanted. Just wish I didnt have figure it out this way. But everything happens for a reason...Right? Well I didnt think Charles would take me back. I thought that he had reached the point that he was done for good. But THANKFULLY he took me back. Even though I feel guilty every single day I know that he loves me & that we will make it thru this. He's the love of my life. He treats me wonderful & things have changed with us.....for the BETTER!!! He shows me love. We cuddle more & Dominic seems more happier as well. Thats ALWAYS a plus..Well thats all about that.

Right now Charles & I are just trying to get back on top & get everything in order like it was. He has gotten two jobs to keep up & I'm looking for a second job. Right now I work at KFC and even though it's fast food. I actually like it if you can believe that. Some of the people are GREAT & others are just ok. I dont make much which is why I'm looking for another job! But it's good for right now. I also think that with me having a job takes alot of the stress of Charles & I so we dont argue. Which we havent done since I've been bback.

Dominic! WOW, alot has been going on with little man! Well he know is a whopping 22lbs & is 30 inches tall. Growing like a weed it seems. Unless you put up agaisnt bigger kids then it seems he's not growing at all...lol..But he's been GREAT. Becoming such a big boy. He's starting to talk alot more now. Not that you can understand him. I can cuz I'm his mother. We've been trying to get him to say pop pop and nana but no luck yet. Were starting the potty training thing just a little at a time. Even though he cant talk were just gonna give it a try. He loves his potty though. He's been teething the last two weeks or so. I think he's getting some on the bottom & his cuspids on the top. He's already got both first molars so...I cant wait till the warm weather comes & stays so he can play outside with daddy more.

Well I think thats about it for now. Oh Charles & I are thinking about another child. We both really want to have a little girl. We know that having a child is hard. We know that its gonna get harder but we rushed things with Dominic & now we just want to have one & let it take its time and enjoy every little moment we didnt with Dominic. Charles wants to right now but I worry about to much. I worry about what my parents would think. Even though it's OUR decision & not theres but I dont want to disappoint my parents. I feel like I've done that my whole life & for once I just want to make them proud. I worry about the labor & pregnancy. Nothing can get easier then it was with Dominic. But it doesnt matter if it's now or 5 years down the road your always gonna worry about things like that. I'm also worried about how Dominic will act with the new baby. I dont want him to think that mommy & daddy love him less cuz theres another baby. Mommy & Daddy will ALWAYS love him just a bit more cuz he's our first. I thought about talking to my mother but I know she'll tell me to wait..She likes it being just Dman. As do I but I'm getting to the point that I'm ready to expand our family. I dont know. Well thats all for now. Until next time...


XOXOXOXO,
Jennifer

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A Few updated pics...
This is my husband & i a few weeks ago. See thats how happy we are ALL the time now!

Charles is just a cheesein


Dominic in one of his Spring outfits that grandma got him. He's big pimpin...

got mamas phone


Mommy & Dominic on St. Pattys day sporting in our 'green' so we didnt get pinched...lol

For once he was cuddling with me..


Daddy & Dominic showing love to each other. There so inseperable....

there inseperable

Jennifer

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My name is Jennifer. I am 24 years old. I'm a very pround mama to a little boy who is 4 & his name is Dominic. He is my pride & joy. Drives me nuts sometimes but at the end of the day he always knows how to make my day better. I'm also a proud mama to my beautiful daughter who is 7 months & her name is Khloe. She is a blessing & I dont know what I would do without her. I love my babies. I'm currently taken by the love of my life. Mike & I have been together almost 2 years & I couldnt be happier. He truely makes me happy & I am so grateful to have him.

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